My thoughts are clouded by the memories of our past and the possible future ones with him.
(Source: cassilynn)
Pouring my heart out to you..
I finally got the guts to tell you how I felt. It felt so relieving to get everything off my chest so I can have closure. I didn’t write the letter to make you want to reach out to me but a big part of me wishes you would. At the end of the day I said what I what I had to say. Hopefully you understood where I was coming from because I really needed to let you know how I felt because it was truly killing me. I honestly still miss you more than anything but its time that I move on as best as I can. I still love you and I always will because you were my first and only love, you taught me what it went to love someone and be loved by someone. I hope that one day in the future that we could be friends because I don’t ever want you out of my life but that is up to you. All I can do now is take it one step at a time.
Hearing your name hurts
I hate talking about you, I hate hearing your name, like I just hate when you are brought up at all. It hurts so much bc I end up thinking about you. I hate thinking about you bc I work so hard to get you out of my head. I don’t wanna think about everything we had bc it hurts to know that you just let it all go. I don’t understand how you could just walk away from it all so easily. I was left to pick up the pieces on my own and I’m trying so hard to move on and be strong. That’s why I break down when I hear your name or talk about you because it kills me.
